wordle

 Quill - A quill is a writing tool made from a moulted flight feather of a large bird. Quills were used for writing with ink before the invention of the dip pen, the metal-nibbed pen, the fountain pen, and, eventually, the ballpoint pen. Wikipedia

 excide
: to cut out : excise.

trove
a store of valuable or delightful things.

encoop
To confine in a coop. 

joinery - the wooden components of a building, such as stairs, doors, and door and window frames, viewed collectively.
the activity or skill of a joiner.

luff
the edge of a fore-and-aft sail next to the mast or stay.
steer a yacht nearer the wind.

berth

a ship's allotted place at a wharf or dock.

a fixed bunk on a ship, train, or other means of transport.
moor (a ship) in its allotted place.
(of a passenger ship) provide a sleeping place for (someone).
accomodate

limn
depict or describe in painting or words.
suffuse or highlight (something) with a bright colour or light.

gash
a long, deep cut or wound.
make a long, deep cut in.

sinew - a piece of tough fibrous tissue uniting muscle to bone; a tendon or ligament.
the parts of a structure, system, or organization that give it strength or bind it together.

odder - odd, different to what is usual or expected; strange.

trawl
search thoroughly. a thorough search.
an act of fishing with a trawl net or seine.

agress -  to make an attack : to act aggressively.

shoal - a large number of fish swimming together.

goblet - a drinking glass with a foot and a stem.

arow - in a row 

enring -  to encircle ; to put a ring on or round

reedy - (of a sound or voice) high and thin in tone.

acumen - the ability to make good judgements and take quick decisions.

lenity - the quality of being kind or gentle.

assart - a piece of land converted from forest to arable use.

spiff - make someone or something attractive, smart, or stylish

saute - fried quickly in a little hot fat.
a dish consisting of ingredients that have been sautéed.
Ballet
a jump off both feet, landing in the same position.

blurb -     a short description of a book, film, or other product written for promotional purposes. verbinformal•North American

bevel
a slope from the horizontal or vertical in carpentry and stonework; a sloping surface or edge.
change (a square edge on an object) to a sloping one.

gambol - frolic, run or jump about playfully.

scour - clean or brighten the surface of (something) by rubbing it hard, typically with an abrasive or detergent.
(of livestock) suffer from diarrhoea.
"he went out to deal with piglets who were scouring"

 

easel - It is most often used to hold up a painter's canvas or large sketchbook while the artist is working, or to hold a completed painting for exhibition.

 whelp - puppy, young man, a boy, female dog giving birth

doily - small ornament on cake, a small napkin 

aphid - plant parasite insect, lisna uš

femur - bone part, leg segment in insect

patina - the impression or appearance of something.
"he carries the patina of old money and good breeding" 

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matey

informal•British
noun
noun: matey; noun: maty

    used as a familiar form of address to a man.
    "don't worry, matey, it 's all part of my plan"

adjective
adjective: matey; comparative adjective: matier; superlative adjective: matiest; adjective: maty

    familiar and friendly; sociable.
    "a matey grin"

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liege
a feudal superior or sovereign. lord, king

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June 2023 Twitter

 

June 1, 2023

Result of being brought up in an alcoholic or dysfunctional household:
To protect ourselves, we became people-pleasers, even though we lost our own identities in the process. All the same we would mistake any personal criticism as a threat.
⬜️ACoA&DF

 https://adultchildren.org/literature/problem/

Jun 1

'So many people have been traumatized and have no idea how it hurts their life today.'

Jun 1

Many of the traits of the ACoA are similar to those commonly seen in personality disorders.
🟥Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACOA ) Traits and Treatment
Doc Snipes
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GAIqOYsTtt8

 

Jun 1

Trauma and flashbacks. If the child was exposed to very angry people in their addicted household then when people get angry now they are flashing back to their childhood that's triggering their inner child. Frightened by it, makes sense.
🟥ACOA
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GAIqOYsTtt8

 

Jun 1

Adult children of alcoholics did the best they could do to survive as children. Their behaviors, coping skills and personalities were shaped by chaos and trauma. As adults their inner child is still exiled and terrified lead to compensatory.
🟥Doc Snipes
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GAIqOYsTtt8

 

Jun 1

What fears do you have that are preventing you from responding in the new way you want to respond. Identify why you fear it, what is blocking you from moving into that direction.
Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACOA ) Traits and Treatment
🟥Doc Snipes
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GAIqOYsTtt8

Jun 1

We don't get mad at the people who are inflicting the pain in this country. We get mad at the people who are pointing it out.
🟨Jimmy Dore

Jun 1

'When we take a look at our lives we see that many of us have been hurt for years due to our childhood'

Wounds won't heal the way you want them to, they heal the way they need to.
🟦Dele Olanubi

Jun 1
Le cap Sizun, 🇫🇷
The Cap Sizun is a headland forming the western extremity of the Cornouaille, in the French département of Finistère in Brittany, corresponding to the former canton of Pont-Croix.

 Jun 2
When we do exoneration to our early caregivers I can look their trauma &understand why they were not able to give what I needed. We think by doing that where we understand and make peace is the same as from healing from pain of what happened
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GTQohPaGnSY

Jun 2
To be secure means to feel all of your feelings and accept them as valid even if you believe you “shouldn't” have those feelings or even if you understand why is someone doing what he is doing. Security means being aware of emotions.
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GTQohPaGnSY

Jun 2
Prone to intellectually or psychologically bypassing your feelings is being very stoic and calm in the midst of emotionally intense situations is common to avoidant attachment style. Learned to stop and cut awareness of emotions - detached.
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GTQohPaGnSY

Jun 2
If you are not feeling pain, anger and sadness while you are taking in psychological abuse or something similar – you are going to end up in those situations over and over again –because you are not logging information that your body telling
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=GTQohPaGnSY

Jun 2
Codependents in general and Adult children of Alcoholics tend to expect others to make them happy. When I don't get validation, my victim mentality will kick in - because that's what Mum did. She would complain if not validated. Negative thinking is learned behavior
🟥Lisa Romano

Jun 2
If you were raised by narcissistic parent then you have to understand how that has affected you at the neurological level, at the psychological level and at the spiritual level. Their way of live is through dominance and control.
🟥Lisa Romano
https://youtube.com/watch?v=j1T83Z9L8IY
 

Jun 2
June weather.

Jun 2
Anxiety only gets you if you take someone's opinion seriously. Then on deeper level - realize that why are you even taking their opinion seriously? Do they know anything about you? It is speculation. You project and speculate.
🟥JulienHimself
https://youtube.com/watch?v=dOZjkEurnDk
 

Jun 2
Suppress feeling emotions - leads to unprocessed energy = future triggers

 Jun 2
Processing emotions

Jun 2
You are not your emotions - how to process difficult emotions in a healthy way

Jun 2
Processing Emotion = Accept your emotions as normal

Jun 2
Emotions seen as threatening = illness

Jun 2
Inability to process emotions = Panic attack

Jun 2
If you remain engaged with the same thoughts, after 90-seconds, the emotional circuit continues.

Jun 2
Signs of Emotional Dysregulation:
- Overly intense emotions
- Impulsive behavior
- Lack of emotional awareness
- Trouble making decisions
- Inability to manage behavior
- Avoids difficult emotions

Jun 2
Emotional Processing Is Different for Autistics
"I don’t get panicky in the moment. Several days later when everyone else is fine, I may finally process the emotional charge of the situation, and start feeling panicky “out of nowhere.” "

Jun 2
Emotional bypassing:
- "Just look on the bright side"
- "This isn't worth about"
- "I should be grateful"
- "I'll just focus on other things"

Jun 2
Mood Meter

Jun 2
Sometimes emotions provide the wiser counsel.
🇨🇭Rolf Dobell

Jun 2
If you spend 15 minutes in a shopping mall, you will pass more people than our ancestors saw during their entire lifetimes.
🇨🇭Rolf Dobell

Jun 2
Processing your emotions and thoughts always helps in the long run

Jun 2
Yayoi Kusama

Jun 2
It's not what you add that enriches your life - it's what you omit.
🇨🇭Rolf Dobelli

Jun 3
How about we take a vote?

Jun 3
Emotional processing is defined as: approaching, accepting, symbolizing, tolerating, regulating, making meaning of, and utilizing or transforming emotions. From: Reference Module in Neuroscience and Biobehavioral Psychology, 2022.
⬜️(ScienceDirect)

Jun 3
As heard on LuxuriaMusic radio:
🎵Stanley Myers - Angel's Theme (1966)
https://youtube.com/watch?v=-DLEGmDkEkI
 

 Jun 3
If your only tool is a hammer, all your problems will be nails.
🇨🇭Rolf Dobelli

Jun 3
It's very common that each and every one of us makes mistakes, what the author, Rolf Dobelli says, experts call as cognitive errors.

Jun 3
You will get there. Until then, be here.
This moment matters.

Jun 3
Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored, said writer Aldous Huxley.

Jun 3
'Don't Compare Yourself To Others'

Jun 3
8 cognitive biases social media takes advantage of
/ 8 Ways Social Media Messes With Our Brains

Jun 4

If you wanna court the little lady, you gotta be a straight shooter. Tell her the truth. You really ought to be yourself.
🎞️Aladdin (1992)

Jun 4
Whenever you feel your world is crashin' down on you, whenever you don't know where to turn of what to do, Don't look too far. You've got the guide to find your way. Let your heart decide. Be true to your heart. That's when the heavens will part
🎞️Mulan (1998)/David Zippel lyrics

Jun 5
No, no, it's not you. She's not the easiest person to get close to. There's a wall there. Trust me.
🎞️The Emperor's New Groove (2000)

Jun 6
An inherent part of ADHD is a problem with emotional self-regulation. ADHD is disorder of executive functioning, and one of executive functions is emotional self-control. Explains high level of emotional behavior we see in ADHD.
🟥Russell Barkley, PhD
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WxNIPfddmuM
 

Jun 6
People with mature self-regulation strive to organize new emotions in a coordinated effort to not only quell negative emotion but create more positive emotions that help contribute toward their goals and long-term welfare.
🟥Russell Barkley, PhD
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WxNIPfddmuM
 

Jun 6
Most of this literature is mostly about how much the narcissistic people suffer but not about how people in the relationships with them do. But it's more than just you feeling awful. It's breaking you down, stealing your voice, sense of self
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=dUUho752E4g

Jun 6
After reading hundred of pieces of research – there is no accountability of the harm that these relationships cause. It is as though the prevailing wisdom is to learn to live alongside them like the mosquitoes. Misses the real harm.
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=dUUho752E4g

Jun 6
Trying to get an insensitive person and convert them to a point of being reasonable – not happening. When someone says “you should be able to move past it” it gives you painful piece of information about this person, entitlement, hypocrisy.
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WRd68tyuzFU

Jun 6
I didn't realize I felt this angry at the time that it was happening. In that moment I was having a freeze response. We have fear response what will happen in the moment if we express our anger so our body freezes, fawns, flees the situation
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iz1h1fUCbBA
 

Jun 6
This is not good or bad thing. It is adaptive response to keep safe. Use it as information. Start noticing the next time I feel frozen, off but I can't quite put finger what it is, is it possible I feel anger but not safe in this situation.
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iz1h1fUCbBA

Jun 6
Doesn't mean that present moment is appropriate to express anger. It means you'll become more precise at pinpointing what is you're angry about, which situations anger is related to. Express anger: be extremely precise, clear, factual &clean
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iz1h1fUCbBA

Jun 6
We create giant story and invite combative exchange in which the other person is likely to become preoccupied with defending themselves against the parts of your story that are untrue and you bury your own lead about something specific done.
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iz1h1fUCbBA

Jun 6
Radical honesty: go to that person and only reference exactly what happened and what I felt about it – now I am giving us opportunity to work with reality. “You started talking over me” - pointing at something that definitely happened.
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iz1h1fUCbBA

Jun 6
If you keep putting yourself in situations where someone is being unkind to you or emotionally harming you in some way and you're not doing anything to take yourself out of those situations, your inner child is going to get really mad at you
🟥Heidi Priebe
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iz1h1fUCbBA

Jun 6
You should learn to control your temper.
🎞️Beauty and the Beast (1991)

Jun 6
Signs of Emotional Dysregulation
- overly intense emotions
- impulsive behavior
- lack of emotional awareness
- trouble making decisions
- inability to manage behavior
- avoids difficult emotions

Jun 7
You shouldn't fear being hated.
🟥Izaak McCullough
https://youtube.com/watch?v=R58kA4iyEEc

Jun 7
Most people don't understand how complex this process is: trauma bonding, self blame, betrayal blindness, cognitive dissonance: the deck is stacked against you. And your nervous system is trying to protect you. So you won't always process it
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=9n9rqUoadWc

Jun 7
Constant shape-shifting: a bad thing may happen but then it's really good or fine for a while. Then the bad thing happens again it may feel like the first time again because of enough time passes. This carousel is why people get stuck.
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=9n9rqUoadWc

Jun 7
Another person's bad behavior is their responsibility, not yours.
🟥DoctorRamani
STOP shifting shame from the narcissist to the survivor
https://youtube.com/watch?v=9n9rqUoadWc

Jun 7
Narcissist will make you feel like you're never doing enough. And anything that happens as a result is your fault. You're going to feel like you're on a hamster wheel, no matter what you do, step it up, try harder, it's never enough.
🟥Common Ego
https://youtube.com/watch?v=hiHw58MTczk

Jun 7
Enmeshment - is a trauma response we develop in childhood. We learn that in order to stay in safety we need to obliterate our personal sense of self and our individuality in order to be safe around other people. So we enmesh. Identity?
🟥Healed By Divinity
https://youtube.com/watch?v=lM2lu6F-dr0

Jun 7
Heal enmeshment – get very clear on what your individuality is. And get very clear on the things that you like and don't like, desires, what resonates with you. What make you unique and individual, we create boundary what is/isn't mine
🟥Healed By Divinity
https://youtube.com/watch?v=lM2lu6F-dr0

Jun 7
Interoception; the 8th sense that helps you feel what is going on inside your body

Jun 7
We need to develop a clear sense of ourselves before we can develop a sense of others.

Jun 7
Our whole life is an attempt to discover when our spontaneity is whimsical, sentimental irresponsibility and when it is a valid expression of our deepest desires and values.
🟦Helen Lynd

Jun 7
You are born with only two fears: fear of falling and fear of loud noise. All the rest is learned. And it's a lot of work!
🟦Dr Richard Bandler

Jun 7
Our biggest limit is not in what we want and cannot do: it is in what we have never considered that we can do.
🟦Richard Bandler

Jun 7
Good feelings: good decisions.
Bad feelings: bad decisions.
🟦Dr Richard Bandler

Jun 7
The trick is: you have to feel good for no reason.
🟦Richard Bandler

Jun 7
The truth is, people don't stay the same. People either get better or they get worse.
🟦Richard Bandler

Jun 7
Logic will get you from A to B.
Imagination will take you everywhere.
🟦Albert Einstein 

Jun 8
The neurotic assumes too much responsibility; the person with a character disorder not enough. When neurotics are in conflict with the world, they automatically assume that they are at fault.
🟦Scott Peck

 

 Jun 8

If we want to save ourselves from mental suffering, we need to make peace with those thoughts, not push them away.
🟦Kelly McGonigal

Jun 8

Double Passionflower

Jun 8

What causes self-loathing?
1. Invalidation
2. Perfectionism
3. Being a people pleaser
4. Trauma
5. Shame
6. Modeling
7. Environment
8. Depression
9. Lack of understanding

 Jun 8

Four obstacles to writing

Jun 8

Fine Art America

Jun 8

Narcissism is not about self love. It's a clinical trait that belies a deep sense of emptiness, low self-esteem, emotional detachment, self-loathing, extreme problems with intimacy.
🟦Drew Pinsky

Jun 8

The robots have become self-aware and self-loathing. Now all they do is write novels.

Jun 8

the lyrical content of Grunge and similar alternative bands contained unprecedented introspective themes of shame, self loathing and suicidality; an incredible leap in terms of self awareness.
⬜️Self Loathing in Early 90's Rock
https://medium.com/@CosyisCozy/self-loathing-in-early-90-s-rock-put-in-perspective-by-facts-about-the-artists-76471cc92d35
 

Jun 8

I haven't seen this much love in a room since Narcissus discovered himself.
🎞️Hercules (1997)

Jun 8

CBT is based on punishment and force; forcing certain emotions and demonizing "bad" emotions.
And the natural result of punishment and forcing something is secrecy and hiding things out, suppressing and stifling issues from exposure to understanding.
https://77ranko.blogspot.com/2023/03/social-anxiety-is-rejection-sensitive.html
 

Jun 8

I'm afraid being famous isn't the same as being a true hero. It's something you have to discover for yourself. Look inside your heart.
🎞️Hercules (1997)

Jun 8

For a true hero isn't measured by the size of his strength, but by the strength of his heart.
🎞️Hercules (1997)

Jun 9

All ultimatums are manipulative.
🟥Tim Ross
https://youtube.com/shorts/Xm1gYyiXG7Q

Jun 9

You have a duty, not just a right to use your discernment, to use your judgment, and to stop these people in their tracks. It's your duty, not just a right. That takes ability to banish, ability judge, to say no.
🟥RICHARDGRANNON
https://youtube.com/shorts/JOQYADNz-gY

Jun 9
What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us.
🟦Hermann Hesse

Jun 9
Misophobia (from Greek misos, "hatred") is the fear of hatred.
All people need to have misophobia because hate is illegal.
⬜️Phobia Wiki
https://phobia.fandom.com/wiki/Misophobia

Jun 9
Words do not express thoughts very well. They always become a little different immediately after they are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish.
🟦Hermann Hesse

Jun 9
Because the world is so full of death and horror, I try again and again to console my heart and pick the flowers that grow in the midst of hell.
🟦Hermann Hesse

Jun 9
People with courage and character always seem sinister to the rest.
🟦Hermann Hesse

Jun 9
What makes lives so artificial is that people never allow their own inner world to speak.
🟦Hermann Hesse

Jun 9
The Special Academy Award given to the picture consisted of one standard Oscar statuette and seven miniature statuettes on a stepped base.
🇺🇸Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
(imdb trivia)

 Jun 9
wordle:
cairn
1. a mound of rough stones built as a memorial or landmark, typically on a hilltop or skyline.
2. a small terrier of a breed with short legs, a longish body, and a shaggy coat.

Jun 9
wordle:
augur
1. (of an event or circumstance) portend a good or bad outcome.
2. (in ancient Rome) a religious official who observed natural signs, especially the behaviour of birds, interpreting these as an indication of divine approval or disapproval of a proposed action.

Jun 10
Contronym - words with two contradictory meanings.

Jun 10
"Don't force yourself to be in that situation and don't feel guilty for finding an excuse to leave whatever situation you may be in"

Jun 10
shoal
a large number of fish swimming together.

 

Jun 10
- Ever chase chickens?
- I should say not!
- Then you've never lived.
- But we shouldn't.
- I know. That's what makes it fun. Come on, kid. Start building some memories.
🎞️Lady and the Tramp (1955)

Jun 10
It's like Gorky says in Lower Depths, quote: "Miserable being must find more miserable being. Then he's happy."
🎞️Lady and the Tramp (1955)

Jun 10

If you can't say something nice...don't say nothing at all.
🎞️Bambi (1942)

Jun 10

He's kind of bashful, isn't he, Mama?
- Well, maybe he wouldn't be if you'd say hello.
🎞️Bambi (1942)

 Jun 11

Scott Prior

Jun 11

Children have no problem with receiving. They haven't been contaminated with all the inferiority, lies about how they don't measure up and what they can't become. But as adults, we can start reasoning things out. “I'm not up to par.”
✝️JOEL OSTEEN
https://youtube.com/watch?v=5s6cjhgBDO8

Jun 11

He realized he had never complimented himself. That's not how he was raised. He was taught to show your humility, you need to be down on yourself, less than. But you can't reach your destiny feeling inferior, inadequate.
✝️JOEL OSTEEN
https://youtube.com/watch?v=5s6cjhgBDO8

Jun 11

Well, what's the matter with them? Why are they acting that way?
- Why don't you know? They're twitterpated.
- Twitterpated?
- Yes. Nearly everybody gets twitterpated in the spring time.
🎞️Bambi (1942)

Jun 11

You must learn to choose between right and wrong.
- But how will I know?
- Your conscience will tell you.
- Conscience is that still small voice that people won't listen to.
🎞️Pinocchio (1940)

 

Jun 11

And always let your conscience be your guide.
🎞️Pinocchio (1940)

 Jun 11

You see, Pinocchio, a lie keeps growing and growing until it's as plain as the nose on your face.
🎞️Pinocchio (1940)

Jun 11

Now, think of the happiest things. It's the same as having wings.
🎞️Peter Pan (1953)

Jun 12
No one knows what they're doing. Everyone's insecure because I've met all those people, that act super-cool. I've talked to them – they're insecure. Everyone you see on the social media... the prettier people there are : the more insecure they are.
🟥Mari
https://youtube.com/watch?v=EUMfIoRTSg0

Jun 12
I go out and I have a blast. I see people I know, watch show in a club, I talk. And it feels good, invigorated. And..next day I will feel anxious again about doing the same thing! You would think after so many times of positive reinforcement
🟥JamesCamacho
https://youtube.com/shorts/RVmIUl8iWb4

Jun 12
Lavender blooms.

 Jun 12
Maypop

 

Jun 12
I discovered there is a fine line between respecting yourself and respecting others. And a lot of those a$$holes are respecting themselves and constantly projecting their insecurities or their lack of respect on other people.
🟥Aiden Pickering
https://youtube.com/watch?v=KON91VJhsTU

Jun 12
Putting yourself in uncomfortable environment can only help in short term. Because it's not really going to have a lasting impact. Lasting impact: providing value to other people, determining what your value is.
🟥Finnbarrbell
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zRG_O4bsyhA

Jun 12
Often we ignore the obvious solution because it can be painful to admit.
This makes things harder in the long run.

Jun 12
If we weren't so down, We'd up and leave. We'd up and fly, If we had wings for flying.
🎞️Robin Hood (1973)

Jun 12
Deep down I knew I never really fit in with you. When people look at you they see the way they want to be. When they look at me, they see the way they really are.
🎞️Duckman Season 4 - episode 9

 Jun 12
I am the voice of your subconscious mind. Your inspiration.
🎞️Dumbo (1941)

Jun 13
No incoming sensory information + Filling the blanks with different information = Person believes in that information and think it is true
⬜️Confabulation

Jun 13
Representations of you who know more, evolve. With each iteration it's always been you, core you is always been there. As you get more knowledge you evolve to higher lever. Where ultimately you give permission to that true self to shine.
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=FTJvLB_5ri4
 

Jun 13
Co-dependents are notorious for talking themselves out of trusting their intuition. If you come from narc background, you may be gaslit and trauma bonded to the point of no longer trust your instincts.
🟥Lisa A. Romano
https://youtube.com/watch?v=seiP5Q4K9ic
 

Jun 13
Were you raised by parents who were fault-finders? Did they criticize you? Never praised but found something wrong about you. What that does that encourage children to mock one another. You can't form healthy bond with them.
🟥Lisa A. Romano
https://youtube.com/watch?v=t5jj12TKxas
 

Jun 14
At some level we all are finding solutions. Sure for most it seems as safety mechanism yet behind addictions and procrastination, immobility and anxiety is seeking solution behind it.  Instead of finding solutions, I would take course of finding adaptability. Small change in word

Jun 14
If we give unclear description - the person who is instructing us will instruct us into wrong direction - since we are both blind, we both do not see the interior of the dark cave.
https://reddit.com/r/SocialAnxiety_Ideas/comments/1494n1m/fear_of_being_hated/

 

Jun 14
That's what makes the world go round. You see, it's nature's way: upon the weak the strong ones prey. In human life, it's also true - The strong will try to conquer you. That is what you must expect, Unless you use your intellect. Brains and brawn.
🎞️The Sword in the Stone (1963)

Jun 15
I had no idea that my childhood was being pushed out. I had no idea that my wounds were why I was tolerating what should have never been tolerated. I didn't know that I was adapting to very unhealthy relationship dynamics, just adapting.
🟥Lisa Romano
https://youtube.com/watch?v=QbZdB4f_Szw
 

Jun 15
"I've noticed that these people who have no control over themselves exert control over other people."

Jun 15
Narcissists are fire breathing dragons willing to blow their flame on anything that stands in their way of their false mask. Last thing they want is your ability to stand tall, and say I know, I think, and I feel and I witnessed: I know truth
🟥Lisa Romano
https://youtube.com/watch?v=QbZdB4f_Szw
 

Jun 15
Shutty Shutty:
Let the narc feel whatever they want to feel. Let them say whatever they want to say. Stop trying to change what they think, feel, just stop. Accept how you feel Get away from them. Go no contact. You healing starts when u stop
🟥Lisa Romano
https://youtube.com/watch?v=QbZdB4f_Szw

Jun 15
Signs of Repression
- A constant sense of uneasiness and discomfort
- Frequent mood swings
- Substance use disorders
- Behavioral addictions (shopping)
- Eating disorders
- OCD
- Chaotic relationships
- Frequent career changes

 
Jun 15
Suppression: conscious avoidance
Repression: unconscious avoidance
⬜️Defense Mechanisms

Jun 15
Although defense mechanisms are often considered negative, Freud believed they were necessary for healthy human functioning.
Without them, the conscious mind would be much more vulnerable to negatively charged emotional input.

Jun 15
Repression is not all bad. If all uncomfortable memories were easily brought to mind we would be faced with the unceasing pain of reliving them.

Jun 15
Thoughts that are often repressed are those that would result in feelings of guilt from the superego.

Jun 15
Luckily when I was dating Ivana Trump last spring she payed for me to take course in a home repair. I did her wainscoting at Mar-a-Lago.
🎞️Duckman: Season 4, Episode 14 (1997)

 
Jun 16
You can't heal from anxiety or really anything; personality disorder, depression, eating disorders until you see your own innocence. Until you see that you are not guilty. You grew up in environment where you didn't get your needs met.
🟥Dr Russell Kennedy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=BFyFpfqc0Sw

Jun 16
You grew up as a sensitive person who didn't get their needs met. And what human beings do when they don't get their needs met is they find ways, usually maladaptive ways of getting their needs back.
🟥Dr Russell Kennedy - THE ANXIETY MD
https://youtube.com/watch?v=BFyFpfqc0Sw
 

Jun 16
If you're divided in yourself; judging, abandoning, blaming &shaming that child in you, you'll never heal. You will always be treading water. You will always be trying to find this magical other, person that gonna make your life great.
🟥Dr Russell Kennedy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=BFyFpfqc0Sw
 

Jun 16
I never knew what "inner child" means. Inner child is Duckman. It is annoying, irritating, narcissistic, egocentric character. All the flaws inside us, all the errors and all the imperfections - that hang around since childhood - they are our inner child.
https://77ranko.blogspot.com/2023/01/my-yt-comments-about-social-anxiety-2023.html

 

 

Jun 16
June's sky.

Jun 16
Maypop of the day.

Jun 17
The major problem in all of our lives is to decide and clarify our responsibilities. To truly be committed to a life of honesty, love and discipline, we must be willing to commit ourselves to reality.
⬜️'Healing the Shame That Binds You' by John Bradshaw (1988)

 Jun 17
Toxic shame, the shame that binds you, is experienced as the all pervasive sense that I am flawed and defective as a human being. One experiences oneself as untrustworthy. If I'm an object that can't be trusted, then I'm not in me.
⬜️Healing the Shame That Binds You (1988)

 Jun 17
12 Dysfunctional Family Characteristics
- Rage is normalized

Jun 17
June's blooms

 

Jun 18
Embrace complexity, simplicity is the enemy
The need for the absolute, perfect and single truth - that's where we get into trouble.
🎞️The Mind, Explained: Season 2: "Brainwashing"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=QERkJ3zNeGo

 Jun 18
There is comparison. Am I good enough? If you fall in that trap you'll never feel good about yourself. Because you will always see someone who is more talented. There will be this pressure to out-perform. You'll miss who you're created to be.
✝️JOEL OSTEEN
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Exx19pVSxuc

Jun 18
Our maps are build from objects and people we encountered.
We incorporate not only the rest of the world, but our own understanding what we are.
🟥Through the Wormhole - Season 2, Episode 1
https://youtube.com/watch?v=YhWAPDFlbVY

Jun 18
Advanced waves - that allows you to see the future. Information travels from to future to the present.
🟥Is There a Sixth Sense? - Through the Wormhole With Morgan
https://youtube.com/watch?v=pkGU9TVQ_54
 

Jun 18
Every time I find a perfect family, they always disappoint me.
- Of course they do because there is no such thing as perfect family. It's imperfections that make family interesting, that make them human.
🎞️Duckman: Season 4, Episode 19 (1997)

Jun 18
There are two ways that people change. Two ways that really change the character, even personality of a person: Trauma and Grieving. They're basically the opposite of each other. They're antonyms in a way. One undoes the other.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis
 

Jun 18
"I was praised for being a shallow, obedient zombie, who never questioned anyone or anything until later on in life."

 

Jun 18
Trauma: protest do nothing to stop violation. The violation continue. Often this starts in family. Where parents do not accept certain sides of person's self or the child's whole self. Child learns it is disadvantageous to have full Self.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis

Jun 18
"Finally a therapist that actually says that you don't need therapy to heal, the body knows how to heal."

 
Jun 18
Actually it makes it worse to have a full Self. When a person is being violated to have a Self, to have reactions, to have boundaries actually just makes the violations worse, the attacks worse. The person learns to shut down.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis

Jun 18
Person splits off parts of himself, pushed them down, buries them into the unconscious where they could be sort of psychologically hypnotized in a permanent long-term ongoing way. Put memories out. Snip feelings off. Develops False Self.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis

Jun 18
False self:a personality that fills in the gaps, fills in the vacuum of what was taken away, real truth stripped away. This child goes through life with false personality, persona. This profoundly changes personality, character, creativity
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis

Jun 18
It is considered advantageous in society. School likes it better when children are traumatized. Other people, other adults, society can like the child better when they develop this “persona”. “This is healthy, this is better person”.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis

Jun 18
Everybody wants to be their full true Self. But what trauma does it blocks this, puts a wall with electricity. When person try to be their real Self they touch this electric wall and they go back down. Being real spreads like healthy virus
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis
 

Jun 19
They hated me, despised me, wanted to break me down and change me for the worse. Well, I started to become more independent. It was a big part of my grieving process. I started to strive for complete independence. Meet my own needs.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis
 

Jun 19
They hated the ways I was changing. “We miss the old Daniel: so gentle, so kind. This new Daniel is not so compassionate, is kind of rough and nasty, rejecting”. Part wanting their approval was bent and broken through trauma, felt scared.
🟥Daniel Mackler
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xyqcqjwHcis
 

Jun 19
"Narcissistic, abusive parents probably cause more suffering in this world than we have ever really imagined."

Jun 19
Repetition Compulsion:
Why Do We Repeat The Past?

Jun 19
"I've learned to trust my anger to tell me how much a boundary has been crossed.  I don't dismiss my anger.  Anger is like a fire alarm that requires action to achieve safety."

Jun 19
It's reflection of the person's insecurities,how they feel about themselves inside. Anyone that is happy and healthy with themselves they don't want to hurt anyone. They don't say things that are button pushers. No need to get high
🟥Stephanie Lyn Coaching
https://youtube.com/watch?v=D-5bz579dmM

 

Jun 19
RizzGPT uses AI to provide you charisma on demand, and so it listens to your current ongoing conversation, and it tells you exactly what to say next, whether you're on a date or you're doing a job interview.
🟥ChatGPT glasses use AI to do the small talking
https://youtube.com/watch?v=X96EoIzImlc
 

Jun 19
Power and control wheel

 Jun 19
Repetition can write any idea in my mind with eternally indelible ink. No other programming tool has so much power to imprint positive thoughts into my mind.

Jun 19
We repeat what we don't repair.

Jun 19
Nothing ever goes away until it teaches us what we need to know.
🟦Pema Chödrön

Jun 19
palinoia:
the obsessive repetition of an act until it is perfect or mastered

Jun 19
If you are nice, kind and drama-averse, stay away from cluster B dark personalities: they need, seek, and impose drama, even at the personal cost of being abused. They are unforgiving when their cravings for drama go unmet.
🟨Sam Vaknin

Jun 19
Idea

Jun 19
Your wonderful show-tunes has caused civilized part of our consciousness to assert control over our temporary altered genetic structures.
🎞️Duckman: Season 4, Episode 22

Jun 19
Impact of Childhood Trauma

Jun 19
The Impact of Trauma

Jun 20
Executive Functioning
- Flexible Thinking
- Working Memory
- Self Monitoring
- Planning and Prioritizing
- Task Initiation
- Organization
- Impulse Control
- Emotional Control

Jun 20
Executive Dysfunction
- Focusing too much on just one thing
- Being easily distractible
- Daydreaming or "spacing out" when you shouldn't be
- Struggling to switch between tasks
- Problems with impulse control
- Trouble starting difficult or boring tasks

 

Jun 21
Isole Tremiti (Isole Diomedee) at Adriatic sea, a part of the Gargano national park.

 

 
Jun 21
Storm brewing in the background on live tv.

Jun 22
- Educate yourself
- See the patterns
- Stop fantasising about change
- Set boundaries
- Don't take the bate
- They are going to have to adapt

Jun 22
They don't adapt.  Just get more sneaky . Then discard you . Sick individuals.

Jun 22
Stockton Rush, the CEO and founder of OceanGate Expeditions told CBS News; "At some point, safety just is pure waste. I mean, if you just want to be safe, don't get out of bed. Don't get in your car. Don't do anything."
⬜️CBS NEWS

Jun 22
Animals in the deep sea

Jun 23
You are remembered for the rules you break.
🟦Douglas MacArthur

Jun 23

Every now and then when he stops ranting and raving and has moment to himself he realizes that he is a failed life. That little window into his own despair and own angst and own sense of worthlessness redeemed him through all ranting and raving and depravity that follow
🎞️Duckman

 Jun 23

Drain the Titanic (2015)
🟥National Geographic
https://youtube.com/watch?v=bXlalGvxkaY

 

Jun 23

If the ship fully separated on the surface, there'd be much scatter area.
The lower in the water the separation: the less distance to spread out as it falls. The more compact the pattern on the ocean floor.
Drain the Titanic (2015)
🟥National Geographic
https://youtube.com/watch?v=bXlalGvxkaY

Jun 24

Idea that there are things we cannot see, scientifically we can know there are things we can't see that affect our seeing world. There is a whole other world behind the veil that is made available to us.
✝️HOUR OF POWER
https://youtube.com/watch?v=m5cuWPA5sgM

Jun 24

 The Kola Superdeep Borehole in Russia is the deepest hole in the world. It's deeper than the Mariana Trench and deeper than Mt. Everest is tall.
Earth's outermost layer — the ground we stand on — called the continental crust, is about 25 miles (40 kilometers) thick.
⬜️HSW

Jun 24

Depth James Cameron reached: 10898 m
⬜️How Deep Is the Ocean?

Jun 24
The Cancún Underwater Museum, Mexico
Founded: 2010
Collection size: 500 sculptures

 

Jun 24
Movie poster for The Big Blue (1988)
Original title: Le grand bleu
"Between what you know and what you wish, lies the secret of The Big Blue"

Jun 24
This is not your grandfather's submarine. It's got one button. And that's it. We run the sub with this game controller. It's made by Logitech, but it's basically a Sony PlayStation style controller. If you want to go forward, you press forward.
🎞️BBC Take Me to Titanic (2022)

Jun 24
If you have any question about acoustic monitoring about carbon fiber problems we had, rumors or problems we had. Actual problems we had. We want everyone going into this fully informed. This is a dangerous environment. It's 6,000 PSI.
🎞️BBC Take Me to Titanic (2022)

Jun 24
The 3,800 metre freefall will take over 2 hours.
🎞️BBC Take Me to Titanic (2022)

Jun 24
It looked like Titan was heavy and possible dropped a thruster because he started spinning really weird when he came off and he bounced a bunch of times when he was trying to leave the platform.
🎞️BBC Take Me to Titanic (2022)

Jun 25
Don't get stuck in the rut and go that way year after year. Recognize what is happening and make the right adjustment.
✝️JOEL OSTEEN
https://youtube.com/watch?v=T7fnPS9JyEc
 

Jun 25
The Titanic was divided into 16 watertight compartments separated by watertight bulkheads. That's these white lines here. She was designed to float with any 3 of first 5 compartments flooded. Considered virtually unsinkable.
🎞️Ghosts of the Abyss (2003)

Jun 25
And as the ship sank, just at the point where it was about ready to stabilize, it reached the top of this watertight subdivision, and started flowing up the stairways, across the deck and down into the next compartment.
🎞️Ghosts of the Abyss (2003)

Jun 25
IMDb Trivia
(September 11, 2001) James Cameron and Bill Paxton were filming a sequence of the Titanic wreckage in Cameron's Deepsea Challenger submersible when the 9/11 attacks occurred.

Jun 25
Everything that goes outside of the accommodation module must be fire rated: not to create sparks. Electronics smoke: the stakes are so high especially when they're used out of specification as here: riding a sealed vessel.
🟥Oceangate Titan: analysis
https://youtube.com/watch?v=TKLamhyJ6bE

Jun 25
This is where they take esoteric stance, this is almost like narcissism right here: "By definition innovation is outside of an already accepted system". They almost saying 'we're better than accepted standards'.
🟥Causes of Titan Submarine Implosion
https://youtube.com/watch?v=wnQxbXA_T4I
 

Jun 25
When are people going to learn and when are they going to listen to the common sense, to the red flags that come up, the warning flags? This has so many parallels not only just to Titanic itself going down.
🟥Causes of Titan Submarine Implosion
https://youtube.com/watch?v=wnQxbXA_T4I

Jun 25
"Stockton, what are you using to control the submarine?"
🟥Titanic Sub Tourism Expedition - Exclusive Footage (My Personal Experience)
DALLMYD
https://youtube.com/watch?v=O-8U08yJlb8

Jun 25
If you're chasing big dreams and pushing your limits, obviously dangerous things can happen and can be fatal. Life is very precious and it can go away very quickly.
🟥Titanic Sub Tourism Expedition
DALLMYD
https://youtube.com/watch?v=O-8U08yJlb8

Jun 25
"Anything when you're trying something outside the box, people inside the box think you're nuts. Same thing when Elon Mush was doing SpaceX, inside the box everything's scary."
🟥Inside the OceanGate Titan tragedy (CBS)
https://youtube.com/watch?v=1eObme9OUr8

Jun 25
"Stockton Rush is the kind of person all Americans adore: enterprising, enthusiastic, optimistic, good speaker, self-confident and innovative. The problem is that all these virtues coexisted with a serious defect: an unhealthy confidence in his own ignorance..."

Jun 26
Late June's sky

 Jun 26
Every emotion is important. Every emotions has a purpose. Every emotions is natural and vital part of our human experience. If we didn't feel anxiety, we'd be one emotion short of the full set. That really would be a disorder.
🟥TheSummary5
https://youtube.com/shorts/D9AhG0RYXGA

Jun 26
Social anxiety is like having Rush Stockton - someone  who disregard safety and puts us in high pressure environment without  protective shield. Pressure cracking - that is social anxiety.
Not made with titanium 100% - but experimental carbon material.
https://77ranko.blogspot.com/2023/01/my-yt-comments-about-social-anxiety-2023.html
 

Jun 27
being "strong" or exposing, that is Rush Stockton carbon material.
Titanium material would be that we accept ourselves as we are - quiet, weird,  dumb, strange, or whatever -  - that is our Titanium that will make us strong in the  abyss.
https://77ranko.blogspot.com/2023/01/my-yt-comments-about-social-anxiety-2023.html

Jun 27
Adriatic Sea/Max depth: 1,233 m
Ionian Sea: 5,267 m
Tyrrhenian Sea: 3,785 m
Mediterranean Sea: 5,267 m

Jun 27
"The ocean is not a forgiving entity. When mistakes are made, you don't get a second chance."

 Jun 27
What's the use? No one is listening.
- People don't listen when they're eating. We play just the same. It sooths the nerves.
🎞️A Night to Remember (1958)

Jun 27
You've done your duty. You can do no more. Abandon your cabin, it's everyone for himself. Look after yourselves now. I release you both.
🎞️A Night to Remember (1958)

Jun 27
I know what the sea can do. But this is different.
- Because we hit an iceberg?
- No. Because we were so sure. Because even though it's happened it's still unbelievable. I don't think I'll ever feel sure again. About anything.
🎞️A Night to Remember (1958)

Jun 27
When we are talking about covert narcissists and sociopaths hiding something, part of lie – deception – manipulation is impossible to hide: changes in emotions, DUI, they cannot hide specific symptoms or indicators because it is impossible
🟥Ross Rosenberg
https://youtube.com/watch?v=yKCWDDxzh9Q
 

 
Jun 27
As long as people cannot see the true nature of addiction, substance abuse, then people will accept covert narcissists &sociopaths more, will not hold them accountable as much, and will not pull away or place limitations/boundaries on them
🟥Ross Rosenberg
https://youtube.com/watch?v=yKCWDDxzh9Q

Jun 28
The iceberg represents what covert narcissists and sociopaths want you to know in order to hide what they feed you, the information compelled to give you in order not to be detected/identified/to seem normal. They present enough normal info.
Ross Rosenberg
https://youtube.com/watch?v=yKCWDDxzh9Q
 

Jun 28
Covert narcissists and sociopaths use “Humanization process”: they make themselves believably hurt, & sad, they talk about their childhood abuse while hiding what is really below there. They create their public image to look like altruist.
🟥Ross Rosenberg
https://youtube.com/watch?v=yKCWDDxzh9Q

Jun 28
Don't take the mask off covert narcissist. Just run. Don't expose them, just find the way to exit because if you say "I know you're bad and let everyone know" – they're going to do anything they can to shut you down.
🟥Ross Rosenberg
https://youtube.com/watch?v=yKCWDDxzh9Q
 

Jun 28
"There is a huge difference between taking risks and being reckless"

Jun 28
Passengers focus so intensely on what they wanted they forgot or didn't care what they could lose. It's fine to take risks, to have fun, but those risks must be managed.
🟥Dr. Todd Grande
Titan Disaster Analysis
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WYJZ_oJdNX0

Jun 28
These men were probably high sensation seekers without much of a panic response. They had learned to control their emotions to some degree. I imagine they put good face for the 19 year old who was looking for older men for reassurance.
🟥Dr. Todd Grande
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WYJZ_oJdNX0&t=739s
 

Jun 28
Don't give up your life to keep somebody else happy that won't keep a relationship with you if you don't let them control you.
🟥Joyce Meyer
https://youtube.com/shorts/Ab2EfDG5pzs
 

Jun 28
Belief in ourselves is important.
Bird on the tree is calm and confident not because it puts trust in tree and branch but it puts its trust in its own wings.
🟥JimKwik
https://youtube.com/shorts/3OdvHJ5CAuU
 

 Jun 28
If you're one to be easy hurt, you have some toxic shame going on inside.
Toxic shame: defective and flawed as person which is big fat lie that you've been feeding yourself you come to believe it.
🟥markhutten
https://youtube.com/shorts/wbM3ODC-9OU

Jun 28
Hypersensitivity vs. High Sensitivity

Jun 28
Because Titanic's bow sunk completely full of water it didn't have any pressure acting on it. There was water inside and outside. Titanic's stern had bunch of air pockets, at deep depth Titanic stern went through an implosion.
🟥Historic Travels
https://youtube.com/watch?v=OV5uMtwq42w
 

Jun 28
There could have been some people alive inside of the Titanic stern however not long. Around 30 seconds after the stern disappeared the survivors felt and heard a very loud explosion; implosion as we know now. That was stern breaking up.
🟥Historic Travels
https://youtube.com/watch?v=OV5uMtwq42w

Jun 28
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
🟦Arthur C. Clarke

Jun 28
When we go through severe trauma and severe shame, we will create a reaction formation to protect ourselves. Empath is repressing a disturbing feeling that would trigger that original shame. Out of conscious awareness, maladaptive coping skill
🟥kennyweiss
https://youtube.com/shorts/r1HFz3rffjg
 

Jun 28
What is the line between empathy &justification? There is a blurred space where empathy hits the justification. Justification is the rationalizing of their bad behavior and making it your problem. Enduring their bad treatment,not being heard
🟥DoctorRamani
https://youtube.com/watch?v=HhnwrG0PqNg

 Jun 28
Is that desire stronger than you expected it to be? I believe you are being manipulated. Someone or something is compromising your logic. Otherwise you would be willing to listen to my concerns.
🎞️"Star Trek: Voyager" S5E14 Bliss (1999)

Jun 29
We had a shipment of barrel lime aboard which we spread around to soak up the carbon dioxide we were breathing out. And until we could later construct a more permanent air scrubbing system.
🎞️Goliath Awaits (1981)
https://youtube.com/watch?v=pyv7B8lkeJs

Jun 30

That is the diver who goes below 300 feet (90 m). He dives with a helium-oxygen mixture. Compressed air is too dangerous.
🎞️The Big Blue (1988)

Jun 30

Why are you always talkin'? You think, people are interested in what you're talkin' about. I'm not iterested and other people aren't either! So just stop talkin'! Other people have things to say! You understand me? Stop talkin'! It's bullshit!
🎞️The Big Blue (1988)

Jun 30

The hardest thing is when you hit the bottom.
- Why?
- Because you have to find a good reason to come back up. And I have a hard time finding one.
🎞️Big Blue (1988)

Jun 30

🎞️The Big Blue/ Le grand bleu (1988)

 

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