5 facts I learned from Social Anxiety

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Broken saloon door
People with SA have their brain stuck just like some broken saloon doors, it stays opened. For others, they close automatically, for people with SA, it stays open so it is impossible to calm down, not to feel anxiety and to over-react no matter what you do.

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...some parts of the brain involved in processing and regulating emotions. (includes for instance the Amygdala) may be overactive. As if they do not have any working brakes on them. The amygdala is more active and sensitive in individuals suffering from social phobia.
BOOK: Social Anxiety Disorder - How to understand and overcome Social Phobia using proven techniques, AUTHOR; Raymond Le Blanc

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Pure OCD and GAD are hidden beneath the disorder.
Facts available on the net are abundant and they made a positive revolution in my relation to SA.

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People do not notice me at all. And it is scientifically proven that it is impossible for human mind to notice and to remember what happened, what I said and how I looked.

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Meditation on force does not work - it increases anxiety once you realize you are still anxious.
Since this disorder is caused by faulty biological drive, trying to remove social anxiety leads to more anxiety, people-pleasing, caring what other people think and cognitive distortions.

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ERP works.

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There is one quote that made me think, it's about going out there even when you're not ready:

Overcoming social anxiety, a quick and clear guide, Dion R. Garner:
Fake it till you make it! It is a kind of practice with which you can stress your comfort zone. ...reprogram your brain so that your brain reacts to your behavior accordingly. This practice helps you to narrow your focus on something else than your fears.

 You just fake it, do what you can do, pretend that you know what you're doing. It's they key for those who have compulsive and obsessive nature that you must be perfect otherwise, people will judge you and make fun of you.
Oftentimes I think about how would life be if there was no social anxiety in my life. And I'm aware that I would have all these experiences with people anyway - they wouldn't magically disappear. There would be people screaming at me, making fun of me, judging me. I wouldn't be any richer no have any nicer surroundings, there wouldn't be much nicer and positive experiences than already present. There would be some difference. I would have 5 percent more chance of landing better job. Without SA I'd be poorer however I'd be surrounded in job without people who are hiding like me, who are exploiting people like me. I would change more jobs than with SA, where jobs change me. So years with SA are years in bondage and there is so small space between life without SA, I just need to take those steps - that I already did. Wherever I am, there is a period where I must go through making mistakes and being embarrassed, people laughing at me and my mistakes, attacking me because of them. Without SA I'd still feel unpleasant about it, and I still would need to do stuff for the first time, and there wouldn't be red carpet and tampering for me. That small space between life without social anxiety is - that I'd be more often in those awkward social situation. I wouldn't feel strong emotions so it wouldn't bother me if I made mistakes and get embarrassed, yelled at or laughed at. With social anxiety I think that I must be ready and perfect in order to face the world.
Well, I don't have to be. I can pretend as if I am. I can fake that I know all and that I am ready. I can get answers when I cross that bridge.