SOS playlist -II-

The previous list I created in 2000, when I was 23, it had 23 songs. Right now I have 36, and here are my 36 "SOS" songs for soothing inner turmoil.




Side A
1. Sigur Rós - Salka
[hopelandic]

2. Sigur Ros - I Gaer
[hopelandic]

3. Arvo Pärt - Spiegel im Spiegel
[instrumental]

4. Claude Debussy - Clair de Lune

[instrumental]

5.  Birdy - Shelter 
I find shelter in this way
Under cover, hide away
Can you hear when I say
I have never felt this way

Maybe I had said something that was wrong
Can I make it better with the lights turned on








 6. Birdy - People Help The People
 God knows what is hiding in those weak and sunken eyes
Fiery throne of muted angels
Giving love but getting nothing back oh

People help the people
And if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it





7. Moby - One of these mornings
One of these mornings
Won't be very long
You will look for me
And I'll be gone

8. Bon Iver - Come Talk To Me

Oh please talk to me
Won't you please talk to me
We can unlock this misery
Come on, come talk to me
I did not come to steal
This all is so unreal
Can't you show me how you feel?
Now come on, come talk to me 



9. Counting Crows - Round Here
She says "it's only in my head"
She says "Shhhhh I know, I know it's only in my head"

"Can't you see my walls are crumbling?"
Then she looks up at the building
And says she's thinking of jumping
She says she's tired of life
She must be tired of something












10. Lana Del Rey - Born To Die
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

11. Lana Del Rey - Video games
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby, now you do

12. Judy Collins - Send in the Clowns
Just when I'd stopped opening doors,
Finally knowing the one that I wanted was yours

13. Ennio Morricone- Chi Mai
[instrumental]

14. Vangelis - Rachel's song
[instrumental]

15. Enya - May it be

May it be when darkness falls your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh how far you are from home

Mornie utulie (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now








16. Erik Satie - Gnossienne No.1
[instrumental]

17. Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life







18. Girl With A Pearl Earring "Griet's Theme"
[instrumental]

Side B
1. Whitney Houston - Run To You
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes 
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me









2. Whitney Houston - I Have Nothing
You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love

3. Joe Dassin - L'Albatros
Vois cet oiseau blanc prisonnier du ciel
Dans sa grande cage étoilée
Moi, de temps en temps je me sens pareil
A cet éternel exilé
(See this white bird prisoner of heaven
In his great starry cage
Me from time to time I feel like
In this eternal exile)

4.  Joe Dassin - Et Si Tu N'existais Pas
Et si tu n'existais pas
Dis-moi pourquoi j'existerais
Pour traîner dans un monde sans toi
Sans espoir et sans regret
(
And if you didn't exist
Tell me why I should exist
To drag along in a world without you
Without hope and without regret)

 Et si tu n'existais pas
Je crois que je l'aurais trouvé
Le secret de la vie, le pourquoi
Simplement pour te créer
Et pour te regarder
(And if you didn't exist
I think that I would have found
The secret of life, the WHY
Only to create you
And to look at you)



5.  Elton John- Little Jeannie
Though you've grown beyond your years, you still retain the fears of youth
Oh little Jeannie, you got so much time, little Jeannie
But you're burning it up so fast, searching for some lasting truth

You stepped into my life from a bad dream
Making the life that I had seem suddenly shiny and new
Oh Jeannie








 6. Pachelbel Cannon in D - Sanctus - Winter Light

7.  Stoker Soundtrack - Uncle Charlie - Clint Mansell
 [instrumental]

 8. Edward Scissorhands-Ice Dance
[instrumental]

9.  Giacomo Puccini - Madama Butterfly - Humming Chorus
[instrumental]

10. Mylène Farmer - Désenchantée
Nager dans les eaux troubles
Des lendemains
Attendre ici la fin
Flotter dans l'air trop lourd
Du presque rien
A qui tendre la main
(Swimming in the troubled waters
Of forthcoming days
Waiting here for the end
Floating in the too heavy air
Of the almost nothing
To whom should we hold out our hands)

 Si je dois tomber de haut
Que ma chute soit lente
Je n'ai trouvé de repos
( If I must fall from high
Let my fall be slow
I haven't found rest)






11.  Leona Lewis - Run
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear 
 Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say









12.  Passenger - Let Her Go
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
....And you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast







13. Maria Mena - All This Time
You self destructive,
Little girl.
Pick yourself up,
Don't blame the world.
So you screwed up,
But you're gonna be okay.

 And all this time,
Ohh-oh, all this time,
You have had it in you,
You just sometimes need a push.





 14. Jewel - Foolish Games 
I watched from my window,
always felt that I was outside looking in on you

these foolish games are tearing me apart
your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
you're breaking my heart










15. Erika - Save my heart
Save my heart
With your love and stand by me
Like before I can't go on
All alone without your love 

I'm the one, I'm the one...
Now I know, now I know...
One for me...







16. Way Out West - The Gift
The moon and the stars
Are the gift someday

17. James Last - The Lonely Shepherd
[instrumental]

18. Tornero - instrumental

SOS playlist

In the year 2000, I created this cassette playlist during the time period that was very emotional to me. It was when I was on a verge. It starts slowely, observing the inner fears without trying to meddle with them, and slowly turns to a lighter mood and comfort without illusions. It doesn't judge and it doesn't promise false hope, it's like holding a friend's hand when you cry yorself silly and when you can't get breath from enormirty of pain inside.

Side A
1. Björk - Unravel
while you are away
my heart comes undone
slowly unravels
in a ball of yarn
the devil collects it
with a grin

 

2. Björk - All is full of love

All is full of love
 You just ain't receiving
 All is full of love
 Your phone is off the hook
 All is full of love
 Your doors are all shut

3. Björk - You've Been Flirting Again (Flirt Is a Promise Mix)

All that she meant was good
How you reacted was right
How you reacted was right
Give her some time
Give her some space

4. The Cranberries - I Still Do

I'm not ready for this,
Though I thought I would be.
I can't see the future,
Though I thought I could see.
I don't want to leave you,
Even though I have to.

5.  The Cranberries - No Need to Argue
There's no need to argue anymore.
I gave all I could, but it left me so sore.
And the thing that makes me mad,
Is the one thing that I had 

6. The Cranberries - Disappointment
In the night we fight, I fled, you're right.
It was exactly then, it was exactly then,
I decided, decided, decided, decide.

7. Lighthouse Family - Sun in the Night
How many times in your life have you ever had the feeling
That the way you live is crazy and there must be something else.
When you look at the sky does it ever cross your mind
There could be something you've forgotten that won't ever go away
Like the sun in the night... 

Gets too much after a while trying to always hide your feelings
When the world is going crazy and you keep it to yourself
How much it hurts; though you try, try to get on with your life
And tell yourself that worse things happen and just hope it goes away.





8. Madonna - Substitute For Love
I got exactly what I asked for
Wanted it so badly
Running, rushing back for more
I suffered fools so gladly
And now I find
I've changed my mind

I found myself in crowded rooms
Feeling so alone








9. Sting - Fragile
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

 

10.  Janet Jackson - Love Will Never Do (Without You)

They all said we'd never last
Still we manage to stay together
There's no easy explanation for it
But whenever there's a problem
We always work it out somehow
Work it out somehow

11. R.E.M. - Nightswimming

Nightswimming deserves a quiet night
I'm not sure all these people understand  

12. R.E.M. - Sweetness follows

It's these little things, they can pull you under.
Live your life filled with joy and wonder.
I always knew this altogether thunder
was lost in our little lives.

Side B
1. Mariah Carey - Everything Fades Away
(Let it all fade away)
Don't you know the love is gone
It's to late
Everything fades away
Nothing ever stays the same

2. Mariah Carey - Music Box
When I am lost
You shine a light for me
And set me free
When I am low
You wash away my tears
And take me through
The loneliness
And emptiness
Through the darkest night
Somehow I survive
Through it all

3. Mariah Carey- Butterfly
When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears
Inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

4.  Mariah Carey - Can't Let Go
Even though I try
I can't let go
Something in your eyes
Captured my soul

5. Mariah Carey - Make It Happen
If you believe in yourself enough
And know what you want
You're gonna make it happen
(Make it happen)
And if you get down on your
Knees at night
And pray to the lord
He's gonna make it happen
(Make it happen)

6. Mariah Carey - Till The End Of Time
Each and every night I pray
You’ll come and save my life
I would love you till the end
Of time  

7. Mariah Carey - The Wind 
You've flown into the wind
Escaping all the hurt within
Took to the sky
Leaving the world behind
So young to die
How could you let it all pass you by

8. Mariah Carey - Vision Of Love
Felt so alone
Suffered from alienation
Carried the weight on my own
Had to be strong
So I believed
And now I know I've succeeded
In finding the place I conceived

I had a vision of love
And it was all that you've given to me










9. Alexia - The music i like
I want to live with my fantasy
Dancing into the light
And I can play with my destiny
Makes me feel satisfied

10. Ace Of Base - All That She Wants
The gentle voice that talks to you won't talk forever

11. Faithless - Insomnia
But there's no relief,
I'm wide awake in my kitchen,
It's black and I'm lonely,
Oh, if I could only get some sleep,
Creeky noises make my skin creep,
I need to get some sleep,
I can't get no sleep....